Welcome to Bright Star, Dimmed, a blog designed to document the wonderful—and oftentimes trying—years that I spent caring for my mother, who was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease in 2006. She was perfect; it was the situation that was less than ideal.
Mom recently passed and I’ve had much difficulty dealing with the loss. Perhaps by writing about this experience, I will find peace and joy in the memories of her. Mom and I were more than close, and she blessed me each day with an unconditional love that one doesn’t readily find in any relationship—more love than a son had a right to. I miss her so.
Bright Star, Dimmed began life while Mom was still with me, back in April of 2011, under the name, Treading Water in the Goldfish Bowl. I had a devil of a time getting it off the ground. Not only were my writing skills rusty and in need of a refresher course (or two), but the deeply personal nature of its planned content proved to be more than I was willing to write. I wasn’t sure how deep to go and didn’t want to infringe on my mother’s life. It was also hard to write about giving care when I had my hands full actually giving care. There’s time now, and with direction from above, believe that Mom will guide my hand.
Therefore, I will bravely and respectfully continue with this journey. I will write about our lives. I will tell the story of us.